It's Thanksgiving Day 2016 at about 11:43p.m. The dust has finally settled. Everyone is either back in their respective homes or gently tucked into bed. As for me, the alarming silence awakens my thoughts and I am recounting the day. Like a reel of film swiftly rewound, I gingerly recall the events of the day. As many of you can attest, the hustle and bustle, baking and boiling, cutting and chopping of meaningful days like today unconsciously strips away its significance. I am determined not to just celebrate a day and call it Thanksgiving Day, but I am determined to be Thankful --consciously thankful. God has been too good to me for me to spend the day superficially giving thanks without stopping and making a conscious effort to say Thank You! I think it befits me to stop and connection my actions to my heart and express genuine gratitude.
Today I am thankful:
1. For Wisdom - Someone once said, "wise people ask for wisdom." I've had some really tough decisions to make recently and I am wise enough to know that I need God's wisdom. "If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him." James 1:5 As I grow older, the wisdom of God allows me to see with greater clarity. And more than anything, I see how much I need God. How much I rely on God. He alone is my help. He will send people to walk along side me, encourage me, and/or advise me, but ultimately I've got to know how to hear from him FIRST. "Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding." Prov. 4:7.
2. For my Family - This little 5 year old who is crawled up next to me is giving me the most life right now! Even though in the senselessness of his slumber he periodically flaps his feet and arms onto my keyboard, I secretly find delight in having to move his foot off of my keyboard and onto the bed. I look at his little feet, clasp them into my hands, and reminisce for a moment to a time when family was tangibly distant. "We are a family," is what I think to myself. With family comes belonging. Not only does he belong, I BELONG. I belong to him and I also belong go HIM. Today I am entirely grateful that God took me from a place of obscurity to a place of belonging -- naturally and spiritually. That's a whole lot to be grateful for.
3. For my Struggles - Travis Greene sings the song that has been my anthem since the first time I heard it. God did me a favor. A gigantic, massive favor. Here's what he did: When he made a way in my life, --"don't know how...but when He did it," he left HIS handprint. "Why is this important?" That is important because I still can't figure out for the life of me how God was able to fix it, change it, rearrange it, or make it work. However, when I look back over my struggles and how I overcame -- I see God's handprint ALL OVER IT! See, I may have thought that I fixed my own problem if He would have allowed me to come up with a solution. I may have thought that I was this incredibly brilliant and capable person who could do without a savior if he didn't allow me to get to a place where I was at a loss. Every open door out of a struggle leads me back to God--his handprint is there every step of the way. Every escape, every breakout, and every breakthrough lead me back to God. Yep you guessed it, his handprint is there every step of the way.
"You made a way
When our backs were against the wall
And it looked as if it was over
You made a way
And we're standing here
Only because you made a way"
One really thankful, incredibly grateful girl